10 Things I Hate About You

I saw this movie for the first time on Wednesday, after having seen the first fifteen minutes at a friend's house last summer.
I just....don't even know. I watched it three and a half more times over the course of three days, made multiple other people watch it with me (including my APUSH class...) and I still want to just keep rewatching it and finding new photos and shit. And it's pretty much mainly just for Heath Ledger.
I have some friends who go through periodic "So-and-so is my ideal date/person," and I never understood it until now. I was always sort of flippy-floppy; like, yeah, he's hot, and an awesome person, but then again, so's that guy, so you know.
But Heath Ledger/Patrick Verona. Um. Yeah. His facial expressions/smile are actually the best things ever. And then there's the accent. And I think it wouldn't be as bad, except there's the knowledge that he won't ever make another movie again, and so, you know, that sort of makes everything a little more intense.
So yup, pretty much every relationship I ever have in the future will be marred/marked by this.


(though who am I kidding, I need to take what I can get, because honestly, I think that maybe I repel boys or something. Not actually, it's just that I find the idea of a relationship where I haven't really known the person for very long as mildly repulsive, just because how can you have any sort of comfort with someone you don't really know? I am not blessed with immediate ease around (some) people, which has to do with the intense and immovable idea of social hierarchy that I have in my head, and which pretty much puts me below a surprisingly large number of people and also has very little to do with age [to the point where sometimes eighth graders are above me on that thing]. Andbutso this means that while in terms of outer appearance my bar is pretty low, in terms of inner stuffs I tend to get picky, especially as it relates to how well I know them. Not when it's just friends, but like I said, deeper relationships are different. So yeah, if you didn't manage to follow all of that weird-ass shit, the upshot is just that relationships that are non-platonic are strugs for me. Even platonic tends to have some issues, when it relates to people who are more acquaintances)